I am crying

I am crying again. Do you see it? do You even care? I asked you why do you do the things you do and I get no response. I ask you to talk to me and I all I get is silence. You try to make me feel better and say I did all I can do. That is not me, it's you. I am crying again. I am writing you letters that I will never send. Each one say almost the same things just different variations. I want to get on a plane but how will I be received if at all. The last time I saw you, you told me I seemed boring. You weren't sure if you would be missing out on something else. I am in my room under the covers just wanting for some release. I am crying wondering why can I never get it right. I thought we were happy and on the road to bliss. From the outside it looks like a fairytale but when we are home it's different. No one sees when you ignore me or the nights when you reject me. People like you because you are charming but they never see the person I see. I love you but I have to love me more. I am not that same girl asking myself "is he really speaking to me?" I am a princess I deserve better but you can't see that. You don't see that I love you or that I am committed to you. All you see is how your life is going and I am just an accessory. I am crying again this time I am happy. I removed you from my life and though it is hard it is not impossible. The same way you don't think about me I am not going to think about you.